Broken mirror of our smiles

Feddi Ghani
8 min readFeb 22, 2022

Love can touch us one time purely and last for a life time painfully if not around anymore.

Love is when I loved you for the first time to hold on to you in my life till every time and near or far wherever you’re, I believe you’re here in my heart till my heart will no longer a heart. You’re here, there’s nothing I fear and I know you’ll never go away. we’ll stay forever this way. you’re safe in my heart and my heart will always come to believe that forever.

I loved you from this heart that is no longer able to stress it wings to fly for anyone else, as love is something that last forever in our veins in name of hate when left by the one who we wish to have for. either you love or hate someone the reason will always be same and that’s ‘love for them still lives inside you’ so you’re hollow with hate only outside. your heart is just sensitive as tears. do not put much on it otherwise it will burst and soak and no one able to find it water marks of pain that once shed. trust me holding sometime one true time will makes you feel the most above in life. and loving someone so purely and deeply will affect and breaks you with the same strength you once put in love.

to trust your heart or to not trust your ears is the most challenging part of your life in loving someone. you only should choose being humble towards every action and words and thats how I know love will go on from both side of spaces between you and other person. no matter who is far and near I believe heart have ability to touch other heart in matter of second even from the other side of the word It is just all about receiving righteous person who was made for you Billion years ago from the back of Adām. so trust in time, and even if you have someone who’s no more like your wish anymore you can take it as life test and trust your heart, do not lose the hope. do not lose the love

— that is living somewhere in you.

loving can hurt sometimes, the only place where I feel home along so for all the pains and happiness that are waiting outside knocking to see once again, the life will let them inside someday very soon for you, but you have to understand that pains are just part of your life and your beginning of happiness. if you are reading this Just remember you’re going to receive something beautiful in life soon I promise. love is not easy nor its hard. Its something you can only experience with your deepest heart all alone.

love is the only thing makes us feel alive to discover true meanings of love but it can get hard sometimes to be fine in love, as loving can heal and loving can change you for better part of you, to keep this love in your heart because there are some eyes that deserve to see your smiles that deserve to see you happy.

If you’re hurting right now thats just a part of you telling, that you can do it

To wait for the best that is yet to come and it still hurts to write what connects your words with painful pages of your life. I promise it will get easy and remember that every piece of you will feel blessed oneday soon. but to keep your memories for your heart to remember how blessed you were and how much you will gonna ahead.

Aches for all those times that have lost the best feelings in our hearts, taken from us these precious roses and putting us where tears wont stop falling where you still call it love yet another hate with painful tears.

your heart is sad, confused and missing something you wanna call it near but still far somewhere out there, that still lives near in your close heart. still touches you deep inside, still crushes you inside, cant even describe how close you live inside but sadly its only outside that people of world see.

words cannot describe how wonderful words can make someones life and how worst can it make someones entire life, yet its the most difficult to describe to your heart what is pain and what is love, when its no more in it and those who fight with themselves, who are tired of life, mental illness, toxic realities of relations and they still clueless about their lives. trying so hard to be like we used to, but sadly we cant, hard to accept but bitter enough to dismiss. as long as there is heart broken, there is a beauty on being in love with silence and in war zone with your own soul at the same moment.

people say its okay to be not okay but never tell why and how to get rid of being okay with to be not okay,

have you ever asked someone why we have given the ability to cry, ever?

Probably you never but you may now know the answer so why to be not okay when you can accept that whatever happens in life means something greater ahead. its hard and this is what makes you soft and only soft.

I’m just so tired to share my nights with my own head because all my tears are no longer in me and I’ll use no more words to top my voice that how broken I’m inside and I wanna cry but finds no tears inside.

cold hearts burns inside from something they’re wordless for outside.

Late at night, when people fall asleep, no need to pull out those words in silence that was once screaming in you, and all the ears are empty and eyes are full of bitterness and all the heart is heavy yet mind is blank to decide there was nothing enough and everything above than enough so tell me your lies in truth because we just cant face it, wearing a sad suit with this poisonous tongue that holds some rough and a little broken smile that is tough. what a fool we all are in love to not understand Its only our heart that listen to our tears causing every tear drop feels like another storm of unsaid story. what a fool we all are in love to smile on things we knew we will not one day yet we do. to never able to rescue our past feelings that once hold old you.

climb on my heart to see isn't it broken with all seamless scars the place where we lose all our fears to build our tears, a place that is so pure and dirty as cure yet not sure who it belongs to. my Allah my heart belongs to something you brought out by rubbing back of Adām so why its hard to see when there’s no one to hold your back all alone where theres no one except you.

In the middle of dark thought where you see no one behind you but a fear running towards you without any noise for not becoming you out of all your tears you choose to hear no one near you but your heart can feel it in a way no can sound even close to you sadly. so Just to give me prove I’m living on this wire to say what you buried inside or else you will only scream without words without your senses without your story. because being in your senses hurts sometimes. when some people out there makes you feel like you are not even enough for your own life. but what to do when the heart wants what it wants even if its holds no good for you so even though we know, the future we hold is so unclear. but how to tell that every night I imagine

across all the distance and spaces between us you came near me and gone too far where you have no near me

to shower the distance with all love and spaces with tears

can you hear this heart just hurts anymore waiting for you

so with all these tears you accepted that —

Love can touch us one time and last for a life time and never let go till we’re gone. love was when I loved you one true time I had hold to

Love can touch us one time purely and last for a life time painfully if not around or sometimes even in harmless haunting and happiest memories

Love is when I loved you for the first time to hold on to you in my life till every time I loved you from heart that will someday go on

near and far wherever you’re you’re here in my heart till my heart will go on

till every time to forever I will love you till where there will be no more time

we feel each other when we see each other when we hold each other

till every time to forever so when we feel each other when we see each other when we hold each other

All I know that you’re in my heart

once more you open those door where my heart belongs to you

You’re here, there’s nothing I fear and I know you’ll never go away. we’ll stay forever this way. you’re safe in my heart and my heart will go on to believe that

why these tears when you hear something sad and you just wanna talk about it but you know down deeply you finally have no more strength to do so

Isn't that beautiful to feel that love is more painful than hate but weaker than hate all along sometimes and more powerful than loveless hearts.

I want to cover this sky with stars that speak stories of hearts without words

to let them bleed with the silence as miracle of hearts

to let them shine with the brightest as miracle of love

to let them break with the wishes we make for miracle -

Am I wrong for willing us to make the long love move short steps to no more steps so its you who can stop me from being what we are hearing about ourselves. where is love when there is no soft pillow for tears for sadness or even for happiness.

Isn't that beautiful to understand the fact that loving is something you can explain easily to the one who’s unaware of it but hard to explain to the one who is known to love and aware what love actually holds other than love itself

what love actually holds other than love itself is something we are in our mirrors to other in other words but yet we failed to equate who we are to ourselves and someone we wanna be with all alone. Its not easy to find yourself in bleeding heart than finding yourself in passionate eyes, and If the respect is only thing you want to have from other you must learn to repsect yourself first

could you be the lesson that I never had to learn

because I dont know why it is the most painful yet in all

what is it when turns from blessing to curse. love or love?

love is no more love when it turns from blessing to a curse

our ability to understand is what makes us human

tell me all your lies in truth because I just cant face it so its true that its you

I let my heart bleed all over your windows eyes yet you denied to see

so am I wrong to willing us to move no more in name of love?

It’s you and Its you who I belongs to ever

where you lost, did you not see your mirror

a long time ago

just like me

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